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Sunday, March 29, 2009

my 27th dayy y sedey...

last 27th mac ago, aku kan gaduh ngan aiman..
for the 1st tym in our 6 yers n 5 months relationship, aku x wish pon hepy 27th day kt dia...
even tym 2 ngah gaduh bsar pon, he still wished...kesian plak kt dia..aku taw dia bengang gler ngan aku..siap dia ckp mmpi2 ag..
mmpi ape? aku pon x taw coz till skang bkn bek sgt lg pon...ngah mud x oke..mlas nk btnya n wat2 bek ngan dia....
hr ni ckp 7 hr aku perang dingin....waaa....hebat btl...mmg hebt....dlm ati ni pon Tuhan je taw betapa hebatnye aku dlm kesedihannnn... 2 la...sape suh keras kepala sgt kan...
tp...dia y bslh..not me!!
aku juz nk dia sdar kslahn dia..itu je...tp when he said im sorry n really2 sory n i realized y fault 2...aku x taw la dia btl sdar o hnya nk menjernihkan keadaan smta2... x sape taw kan? ehmmm..
itu la aiman marzuqi y blurrrrr....haishhh....

say it once again...


everybody need love in their life..
love from our parents, fmily, boyfren o gulfren, husbnd o wife o else...

we need some1 2 pamper us...
when some1 said dat he really love u (as u do....), d flowers in our heart will bloomingg..
beautiful like in heaven...colourful...awesome...

as a human being, we love some1 care about us...
n we love to hear they say "i love u" again n again...
so..we shud say it 2 d person dat we love whoever, wherever n whenever they are....
because they are same like we do...we are human who need love in life...

juz say it..
they love 2 hear it once again!

Saturday, March 28, 2009

a one little tear..

again...
for how many tym, me crying again...
caner ntah, tym ngah ym ngan mr judin td tetb aku nngis..
terkenngkan apa y blaku...
tknngkn bnda y aku sesali...
if i can revearse d tym...i couldtn do dat...

OMG....aku sgt2 mnyesal n bharap aku dpt mengubahnye...

Friday, March 27, 2009

......

me trying to help my self adapt wif dis feeling..
dis situation...
dis heart...
n
d most important is dis memory...

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

mY aPolOgizzzzzzze......?

Aiman Qi : please don't hate me....cuz my future is u dear...... ;(


dis is wat he post 2 me in my fcebook....
do he really mean it?

him...mine...

my heart is broken by ....
since yesterday, my heart easily 2 cry n mayb coz of menstrual tym kot..
last nite aiman ringing me...he juz came back from his hotel at 11 pm n on 12, he have a futsal game....
we talk about planning of our marriage n our honeymoon destination...
what disspointed me was, mayb dis disember he cant have his cuti y lm n we cant have our honeymoon yet coz at that month he really busy...when he said dat, me hot immediately..geram....dia ingt keje kawen ni 2 3 hr ke leh setel....??
he never think dat this marriage is important 2 him...even he was d first who proposed me n "pksa" kawen dis year...
if he already knw dat he really bz end of this year, why he asked me 2 marry him on rya hji...bnci la dio ni....he never plan everything on a rite track. he also didnt realize dat rya hji is on november...
he make me feel dat this marriage is nothing 2 him...

as i said last nite...better he marry alone..by himself rather than asking me to be his bride..
thnk u....

Monday, March 23, 2009

AgaIn n aGAiN...

last tym she came 2 me was about last 20 days ago....
i didnt like her actually..
she make me deeply in pain n uncomfortable..
why should she come again today when i have an assignment to submit by 2morrow?
im not ready for her for all my life tym....

i really hate her!! n damned hate her forever in my life
when she come into my life now, all my schedule for today are being cancelled!!!
immediately!!

oh my god....i cant bear it anymore.....

my period pain...please dont come today coz ive a lot of thing 2 be settle down wawawaaaaaaaaaaa...

unfortunately....she already came...
ehmmm.....


~tAggEd~

aku bukak blog muniey n bc this kind of survey...so...aku kn jwb blk la coz kt bwh survey ni ada note: Aku nak tag :

W.A.J.I.B kpada sapa2 yg singgah...

maka....demikian...aku pon kn jwb n korang y bkk ni pon jwb jgn x jwb...ekeke


Here’s a chance to see how well you really know your husband/boyfriend/lover.Cut, paste and fill in the answers, then shoot, you know what to do.The real challenge is to send it to your husband/boyfriend/lover to see how right you really are.



1. He’s sitting in front of the TV, what is on the screen?
citer lawak...x pon cito gocoh2...

2. You’re out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?
mayonis may b.. haha...

3. What’s one food he doesn’t like?
sebarang mee y bkuah

4. You go out to eat and have a drink. What does he order?
tea o beng

5. Where did he go to high school?
kpm kuantan...

6. What size shoes does he wear?
9 or 10

7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be?
jeans

8. What is his favorite type of sandwich?
sumo sanwichesss....

9. What would this person eat every day if he could?
burger kat tide westin...

10. What is his favorite cereal?
x mkn bnda gni...ore darat atep...

11. What would he never wear?
bikini...hahaha

12. What is his favorite sports team?
Manchester United!!!

13. Who did he vote for?
undi adalah rahsia...ekeke

14. Who is his best friend?
judin, solleh, mizi n rmi lg...

15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn’t do?
aku lg buat...ekeke....

16. What is his heritage?
melayu kelate ganu....

;)17. What is his favourite colour?
wite, black, red...same wif me...

18. What is his habit?
suke geletek aku...mslh ni...

19. What is he proud of?
dia tnggi kot sb dia slalu kutuk kta aku rendang....jht...!

20. Lastly, do you think he will read this?
nope!!! sb dia jrng bkk bnda2 y byk tlisan cam gni..ekeke...


Aku nak tag :

W.A.J.I.B kpada sapa2 yg singgah...

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

im a berpoYA2 guRl? keke



ekeke....ive story 2 share...hr 2 x smpat nk post this...

sume org taw y every weeknd aku jarang mlekat kt kolej n this sem bukti y aku da bosan n mals nk aktif kt kolej...x taw la sem dpn dpt stay lg o x...

pd 27 feb hr 2, aku kuar g mkn kt tmn warisan aka kedai 11...da la esok ada 8plorace @ sekitr kL, blk plak da dkt kul 3 lebey coz g mengkarok kt alamnda...even suare x besh tp dsbbkan tym 2 aku stress on somethng so aku lpaskan sume ngan lagu2 y ntah pape...tym 2, y kuar ialah aku, nell, qima, nik, chun, remy n anas...blk je aku pon cuci mk n tdo dengan lenanya...tym 2 aku da knci jam kul 5.30 coz esk (28hb) kul 6.15 da kn btolak ke UM u 8plorce...


esoknya, sebaik saja alarm fon bebunyi, aku pon bgn la dgn muke selengenye ke toilet n mndi mnda...pas sume da bkumpul ktorang- aku, k.dyhar, sue, fizzah n jejaka2 x btul- yan, jali, khai, rahim,juwe, jenglot, atan, amad ada, ktorg pun bgerakla ke tugu negra...pic aku tym 8plorace in d next post ek..ekkeke

even x menng tp bbngga gak sb tmsuk dlm top10 n group atan tmpt ke2...at least team aku lpas ke fasa 3...alhamdulillah...then blk je kul 7 ptg da..pnat siott...blk je trs lnding n sdar je da pgi esk...hehe..


nk djadikan cite...tghhari 2 qima mesj nk dtg upm coz dia dr uni10..kononnye nk breaklunch sesm la..then pas aku pk pnya pk, alang2 qima nk dtg bek ajk g mines trs coz mknn aku da abes da kt blk...aku ajk la fizzah ikt ktorang... smpi je qima n nik, plan berubah..x nak mines tp nk alamnda coz qima nk shoppng..ekeke...

maka, lpas mkn tghri kt padang, ktorang pon bgerakla ke alamnda...smpi je sn trs nmpak nichii n bershoppng la kami kt sn..ktorang smpat smbr sorang sebaju...ekeke...qima je beli baju n suar..biasala dia kan sugarmommy kami, so dwet dia lebey la skit dr ktorang ni...hee...
da abes bebeli2 kt sn, ktorang mula la jln2 n masuk carrefour cr bebarang dapur....





b4 qima antr kami pulangg, ktorang smpat snggh mkn rojak kt uni10...besh2..hehe...bab mkn, sume besh..ekkee...pas2 pulangla kami ke destinasi msing2..



2 qima,thnks coz jd pilot yang bjaya di ari itu..sume pnumpng trn ngan slmat di lapangan msg2..
2 nick, even co pilot ini co pilot y suke ikt blakang tp pjlnn slamt n mesra alam...ekeke

2 all gegurls....len x kt tubik sesama lg...jgn lupe projek sunwayyy..x sbr da i ni...

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

mY lAst WeEkenD (6 till 9 mAc)

akhirnye daku pulanggg jua ke kb after bebulan-bebulan x blk...
blk je byk mende nk dsetelkan..mcm x ckp plak rs weeknd kali ni..ngan asementnyer lg, ngan my beloved ank2 sdara lagi n urusan y mlibatkan hdup dan mati..

even balik juz 4 days tp byk bnda y besh2 blaku..
1st day sampi, trasa nk makan CPT y besh kt pokok bsar wakaf mak zainab ...then, sampi je kdai ttp..sedey la jgk sbb ngah mngidam.. so trs ke pcb...mkn seafud n mnum air kelapa besau..ekekeke...pcb da byk berubh...seram pon ada bl laut da dkt sgt ngan batu2 bsar tpi2 2...







da la pegi ngan 2 pupu aku y rock, amad zamzali so lm la ktorang kt pntai 2..sdar2 da kul 7 n cpt2 la blk umah tkt my mom bsngg...kekeke

2nd dy plak, da la bgn kul10, kul 11 plak nk kua g umah mak sdaraku y wat cukur jambul u cucunya y ntah ke no bape...pe lagi, cpt2 la mndi n besiap2..smpai kt umah mak cik aku 2, sume sibuk tnya psal aku bl nk kawen sb sume cousins aku da tua2 n beranak pnak da....alahaiii....
nk jwb pon ssh coz soklan maut 2...kikiki. anak spupu aku comey sgt...nama amira syahirah...cam nm baby ( ma youngest sis)...baby kecik 2 asik tdo je...mama dia kjutkan u mnum susu pon dia x bgn2...comey sgt tgk dia mgeliat..geram nk picit2...keke..gpon berat dia juz 2.7 je, baby kecik...





hari ke3...ehm...cam biasa la...duk umah....brehat2..tetiba my cousin aida nk dtg amek ajk g mkn CPT...so ape lagi..kuar la kami n blk je umah da lwat ptg da...tym kua 2 sume bnda dcerita..bnda2 x spttnya pon kami cite...haha...2 la...bl da lm x jmpa, mmg ktorang camni..padahal sorang duk upm sorang ag unikl...bkn jauh sgt pon....ehmmm

n d last day, me be a nanny..jg awatif...men2 je hr 2 ngan bdk comey ni...boring2 tgk cite pas2 men dinner dash...x ckp komputer abes lptop aku dia nk bkk n men game...haishhh..btl2 pning ngan dia..da la mnje...aku nk nek blk pon dia nk ikt..sume bnda la dia nk ikt...b4 dia tdo tghri 2 aku bwk la dia g umah k.pah, g potong rmbut awa y pjg bjela...ptg 2 , dia ajk aku kua n tmn dia kt lman umah...dia nk men pnyapu ma mom..haha...klaka gak tgk dia bsnguh2 mnyapu dpn umah aku 2...ehmm....me really missed her...kul 9 aku nek bus kt jln hamzah, dia pon ikt gak...sdey plak nk tnggal my baby girl ni...sayanggg kamooo....






Tuesday, March 3, 2009

cubit peha kanan..peha kiri terasa jua...

perumpamaan (tajuk) ini ditujukan khas buat my fwens...qima, nelly, nick, mc la, najwa, payid n so on...

dalam menempuh hidup di dunia ini kita tidak boleh keseorangan...
kt perlukan teman di samping kt..
tman yang akan berkongsi suka, duka, lara di hati...
berkongsi stp rasa yang dilalui dan
berkongsi apa jua keadaan bersama2...

teman yang baik dan sejati bagaikan pendua kepada diri kita...
dimana tidak dapat dipisahkan dan bersifat cybernatik ( saling berkait, memerlukan atr satu sm lain)...


Sunday, March 1, 2009

i love u..

for my lovely n daring fwens...qima, nelly, nik, mc la, payid n najwa....

thnks 4 being wif me when i really need some1 by my side 2 galoks2....
thnks 4 teaching me how 2 appreciate a fwenship until now n
thnks 4 everythngs...

i love u guys very much!!!

muahhhhhahahaha...
muahhhhkakakka....
muahahahhaehehehe....